I thought that this blog would be about the problems I am facing, that people all over the world face, but then I decided to take the optimistic approach and the article turned out very differently from the one I had imagined earlier in the day.
I have been thinking up many titles like ‘The Two Inevitable Levels’, ‘The Escape’ and ‘Returning To The Roots’; and I have been meaning to upload a blog for a long time but only I couldn’t, because of a lack of sound mind and my absolute failure at coming to a conclusion at this one. My dear readers, I am sorry for being away for so long but I was trying to figure out certain things and now, after almost a week of mild distress (or perhaps intense, I don’t know really) and another week of contemplating, I finally feel I have some solutions for myself. The reason that it took so much time is because the following is not just empty talk but I daresay, I have lived through it.
I will prefer not to be so self-indulgent as to drool at the problems I have been facing and bore you with it (though initially I thought that I would), rather I shall get to the crux of it all.
I thought of the title as ‘The Two Inevitable Levels’ because I have finally figured out that almost all human beings prefer to exist in multiple dimensions out of which two are of prime importance- the ‘superficial’ level and the ‘core’ level. Now, at certain times of your life,you may pretend with all your might that you are happy but you will not be in the state of a bliss and it has nothing to do with excessive or forced laughter but something else. If you’ll pay a little close attention to yourself, you would know whether you are really in the seventh heaven. I mean I did it, and I found that I have not been there for quite some time now. I don’t mean to be the ‘Ultimate Agent’ of the gloomy and the depressed and I, by no means intend to make you one either. All I am saying is that in our heavily predictable mechanical life, we must never stop caring about what we really want and what really makes us happy. I read an article in ‘Times Life’ about feeding our soul and it did give me a huge insight without really caring to get it. I’l tell you what it said a bit later.
I also thought about titling this article ‘The Escape’ because that’s what I thought I was doing. Sometimes what goes around you becomes too much to take in and you might consider escaping the situation. If the going gets tough and you feel like you have been lassoed and ping-pong balls are being thrown at your knuckles at high speed, you would certainly like nothing more than to run out of the t.t. room. The reason that this might happen is because the turn of events taking place right under your nose (emotional or professional) is not a part of your grand plan or something. As a consequence, you freak out and cry about it or be depressed about it. This was what was happening to me at college but as I promised, I shall not evoke boredom.
See, your mind (or if you prefer, the soul) has got ways of telling you that you are not walking on air even if you want to ignore it and continue living superficially in a superficial world. All you have to do is listen to it closely. For me, the wake-up call came when my room-mate told me that I had been crying aloud in my sleep for a couple of nights. It scared the hell out of me and I fled home to get myself back on track.
This brings us to our next title and our next step, ‘Returning To The Roots’. If you have identified your problem and it’s not the world, it’s you because you are unhappy in your dictated circumstance; then you must be willing to solve it. The best possible way to do that is to take a break and go off in the pursuit of things that delights you and stabilizes you. For me, it would be singing, writing, reading, dancing, travelling, playing, resting, listening to music, watering the plants and being with my loved ones. These activities would feed your soul. Though it might seem that it is not working initially, but if you persevere, you will find that you are healing. They will provide you fulfillment. Believe me, I tell this by experience.
I would love to tell you a short story that I read in ‘The Speaking Tree’. Its a parable from the Chinese Philosopher Chuang Tzu.
“There was a man who was so disturbed by the sight of his own shadow and so displeased with his own footsteps that he determined to get rid of both. The method he hit upon was to run away from them, so he got up and ran, but every time he put his foot down, there was another step, and all this time, his shadow kept up with him too, without the slightest difficulty. Wasn’t he running fast enough? So determined was he that he ran faster and faster without stopping until he dropped dead.
If only he had stepped in the shade, his shadow would have disappeared and if he had sat down and stayed still, there would have been no more footsteps.”
I want you to draw your own conclusions for the above story but one of the things that I learned through it is that you need not escape the situation no matter how ugly it gets but try to acquire stillness and tranquility in body and mind and have the faith that things will surely fall into place if your heart is pure.
Which brings us to my last and final title. ‘Reconnect’. Reconnect with yourself.
Just take a short break, feed your soul by pursuing those hobbies that takes you on cloud nine, rejuvenate yourself, mull things over, be back into action in the way that you earnestly want and try to protect who you really are (as my friend Dimri always says, “we must never lose ourselves”. I think he fears that we will ruin a perfectly good creation by doing so, after all almost every human is a wonderful creation). If you do not do all this, I guarantee you that you will become emotionally closed-off and hollow due to high levels of frustration that we face in this fast-paced world. If you know that you are not glowing from within, its your mind’s way of telling you that you really need to work on yourself and establish a deeper friendship with yourself, with your soul. Talk of a big mouth because even I haven’t achieved it fully yet but at least I have found the way. I am trying my level best and hopefully, I would sail through. In fact I am sailing through it right now.
All we have to do is be happy to the core, work up the courage to deal with problems and be intrigued by our own constant personal quest. If the old dream fizzles out, we must find a new dream and chase it with even more vigour and hopefully then, the gloom will not linger for long. 🙂