For a very long time, one thought has been nudging me on and off. I wonder what really is the correct way to be. My friends keep telling me that I am very child-like in all my actions and deeds as I love to sit on stupid rides, play childish games, burst balloons in a birthday party, play with little children, buy small toys in a fair, joke around and fool around, sing aloud, dance awkwardly at awkward moments, wear matching clips in my hair, eat cotton candies, go and watch ‘Ramleela’ (Indian play depicting the Hindu epic ‘Ramayana’ performed at residential localities) in the dead of the night, jump around, listen to childish music, get really happy at very silly things and even watch animated movies with zeal of a little kid even though I am 19 (my friends could add on a hundred more things for sure). There constant nagging has got me wondering on a much bigger perspective. The big question here is “how much should we listen to our heart?” Its a huge dilemma which I have been trying to solve for months and months but without a conclusion. Perhaps all of you could help?
The question they say is “To be or not to be?”. Mine is with a twist; Its “What to be and what not to be?”
However, my belief has strengthened over time that losing the child in you is definitely not the way to be. Neither is denying yourself simple joys and pleasures or practicing a code of conduct so controlled, it makes you look fake. I can say this with authority because I used to be like this once. My talisman now is, go out, go forth, do your thing, undeterred, unbounded, pursue all that you want to, meet new people, explore new places, rekindle the fire of curiosity, never let that child-like imagination ebb away, search happiness in things both big and small; that is cut the thread loose.
Another fact that I have realized recently is that materialistic gains are nowhere near as important for a human to be happy as much as good, fulfilling and healthy relationships are. So brew up relationships that you can count for life; the more they are, the better it is. Be with people you love and love them beyond words. Tease them, play with them and have all the fun you can. Express yourself. We have just one life, therefore, a single chance to do all that we want to do.
So let go, follow your heart and win over the fear psychosis that has been ingrained into you by the society. Challenge every predetermined rule if you must, challenge every wrong way of social structure and never let it inhibit you, for you alone are the master of your own happiness and therefore you alone must cut the thread loose.