“The deepest river makes least din, the silent soule doth most abound in care” – William Alexander
One of my favorite, my quietest retreat, is indeed, solitude. When I am alone, travelling all by myself, I find a kind of peace I find nowhere else. It is liberating for my soul, my very existence. In today’s fast paced world, we are being pulled in a hundred different directions. I find retreating to myself as a convenient means to gather myself, to pull myself together. As I am consumed by impeccable silence, I start enjoying the sweet melody of nature.
My friends think I am unusual. They gape at me , wondering what treasures I find when I traverse across the grounds all alone. Its not that I am anti-social; I just enjoy my own company very much. Its then that awe grasps me as I drink through my eyes all the wonder that envelops me- the skies, the trees, the beautiful natural green, that’s when I look at myself, reflected in everything I see. At that time, I find– me. My room mates are amazed when they see me gone (sometimes for a stretch of a few hours) or when they see me alone in my room, sitting in my favorite corner or lying quietly,eyes slightly unfocused and dreamy; that is when I converse with silence; I converse with myself. I find it a highly engaging and peaceful activity, providing me greater tranquility than writing, perhaps greater than music itself.
I leave my mind free and let it wander to faraway places. I do not put a full stop; I just become a silent observer, my eyes wide open, witnessing the pictures flashing across my mind. I settle into a seemingly easy truce with myself. There, I find reverence, respect and dignity for myself and for others. None of this is done intentionally. I do not practice it consciously. I just slip into that state of mind on my own and when I break that silence at my own leisurely comfort; lo! I find peace, I find myself renewed, I draw greater contentment and strength, I find harmony between myself and all that surrounds my being.
Mahatma Gandhi said, “In the attitude of silence, the soul finds the path in a clearer light and what is elusive and deceptive resolves itself into crystal clearness. Our life is a long and arduous quest after truth”
My solitude becomes my own spiritual space; my private discourse with silence….